Oh School Musicals...

Oh dear. Today I auditioned for my school's spring musical, Into the Woods, and boy did I fail. My drama teacher always tries to get me to participate in the annual plays and other activities that include acting, and I finally agreed to do the fall one-act plays. It was fun, I enjoyed myself, and apparently I did a good job. So, I thought to myself, wouldn't it be fun to do the musical!? Of course! I'd get to spend long hours at school after hours, hang out with all my friends, and act! Yipee! But then with a gasp I remembered that with a musical comes singing... uh oh... I don't generally get stage fright but when it comes to singing I freeze up like an ice sculpture. Well I voiced my concern to my drama teacher, and he spent 15 minutes trying to talk me into it by explaining how he would give me a role without a solo! Everything would be fine and dandy! and finished off his argument with the words "Darling, can anyone in this school actually sing?" (Of course, there are a few good singers, but it's basically true.) Then he calls over my friend Charles (who got the lead role in last year's musical Pippin) and has him describe his experience with the musical, to which Charles replies "Yeah, I was kinda reluctant to audition because I didn't want to sing. So he (my drama teacher) told me he'd give me a role without a solo, so I did it! And then I got the lead..." and my drama teacher immediately exclaims "Yes! See I lied! And I am probably lying right now!" Very reassuring...

Anyway, I handed in my audition form, psyched myself out of my my fear for a couple days and completely put off even looking at the song we were required to sing for the audition, until yesterday... the day before my audition... And I practiced, and I seemed to sing it adequately, I'm not a very skilled singer, so the best I could do. But as today wore on my nerves grew. And as everyone was warming up with our Chorus instructor before we broke up into pairs to rehearse I was actually shaking in fear. Thank god when it came to the actual audition the only people we had to perform in front of were our partner with whom we practiced a specific scene with, the Chorus teacher, and the drama teacher. But as soon as the piano started playing all my preparation flew out the window and I choked. Both times they had me sing. The second time, i got to the last few measures and just stopped singing. I think I saw my Chorus teacher wince. Thank god my acting seemed pretty good, and my drama teacher thinks I am a more than capable actress. But my god, it was probably one of the most terrifying moments of my life...